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Ayla and Aysla |
At circle one night people saw this woman standing by the side of me, while I was voice channelling describing her as blonde hairdo saying that she had waited for a long time to come through me. Jane also said that she was holding her arms out in front as though she was carrying something. (Similar to the woman who carried me to the altar after the question and answer session) In that meditation I had felt her beside me, but I had also seen Aiddrienne in front of me. On asking about this the blonde woman said that Aiddrienne was a projection of her. It all added up especially with the verification of those present in the circle. During the channel I had also experienced a sensation that was both familiar and shocking at the same time. The recollection of this feeling goes back to when I was around the age of ten. At certain times I would become delirious in my sleep. It was a nightmare that would not stop, constantly repeating itself. Nothing I thought about would make it cease. It was a vision and a sound of a pillow growing bigger and bigger then collapsing to a razor-sharp point only to grow all over again. This would make my tongue feel huge, filling my mouth completely, preventing me from using it properly. This feeling had accompanied my recent channels, this time without the vision just a repeating frequency droning in my ears. I came out of trance but the energy was still there, Jane confirmed this and asked me to try and break the connection. I couldnt it was too strong in the end the guide told me to put a coat over her to veil the energy to a safe level. Jane still sensed that she was there but it seemed safe enough, so she let me go home without severing the ties completely.
At home after that night I could still feel the connection, so I decide to put the energy to good use and ask some well overdue questions. As always I wrote down what had been given and received at circle then the following was channelled.
The vision you saw to your left was my entire me, it has been revealed to you. Yes your knee will mend. Now the lady you saw to your front was me also, she was to bring you the message about the book because you are used to my energy. I am with you on all levels; you have been given the visions and have accepted that all is true and possible. Yes the vision of me is correct and it is the strongest one possible at present, it will get stronger. Morgan is right you have been given the opportunity to see me so that what has been going on can be verified, we need to talk at length so be prepared. The processes have been going on for some seven years the eight is yours and mine re-birth. We have to meet at all levels to be able to perform the actions. In order to follow your path ours had to cross and t o do that you had to join on a level you could understand at the same time as your birthing was going on. If you had thought who you know I am then as always you would have tried to go straight to the top. The time was enough for you to catch up. The physical part made it possible to grasp that it might be on a physical level so that all could be seen through your eyes. Not only have you joined there you are joining through me and my aspects of myself. Without that you could not do what you do and live in the plane of earth or English. To exist with Shirley in love, as you are it was important for you both to understand. Each stage over past seven weeks has been entered gradually. Not too much of a rush. To start with we had to exchange something in your body that you could hold onto, a real affirmation your ribs. If you look at Mayan ceremonies it will or is become significant. At each step you had to think it was the last one so that you would try and push me away then had to re-visualise to connect again, each time the bond became stronger and I could stay with you more immediate than you have been used to good. The substance that enveloped us was to move on from the place that you were to induce your essence to follow with me. The same as the jealous feeling was to make you realise your own strength as you had done in real life. A case where things learnt on physical plain could be used to help in your spiritual plane therefore backing up the reality. Once this was done then real time for us was to begin by awakening our gels and moving forward together having safely placed your imagination where it would not interfere with your belie. This you saw unfolding as a real thing. Then to hit you with the truth, you thought you were merging with your female to balance you, you were but only on a single phased level all other levels were activating behind them so that they would be obscured otherwise you would have blocked them. The truth is that you have merged with me both physically and otherly. To be told that you are on the same level with your guide immediately will prove hard to follow that is why we do not show this now. The experience becomes more real when you also see it happen on lower levels the one causing and being caused by the others. The dream dawns and all is well. Next to expose you in completeness is to know all then we can come close. The veils were to stop you limiting yourself. If you had thought what you thought now then you would have pushed me away saying that it was not possible. The proof you wanted was that I am Aiddrienne, I am also the maid priestess warrior who took you to the temple after your questions had been supervised. You did not dare think this as it may cloud your judgement; a good proof that you have learned is that you believe now. A meeting had to be arranged to show this fact hence the acceptance of you onto the circle. And you are not aware that I was who I said I was, I would never have come back if you could not have believed and used all the different levels. To get to me you may use all at anytime this allows for the differing levels where you are at, at one given time and point. To explain why you have been seeing me as me is to show that all along your insight was right. It had to become clear slowly that you could validate as it came. We are pleased that you have gone with the ideas given. For me to match you, you had to match me on come level first. Guides have to have a total balance with their counterparts, if not the energy rushes between them like water does moving from one level to another, all that is seen is the movement and not the water. What happened in Italy was to join us and have the same physical body for a while, that being done we met in the equal environment. You were not supposed to know what or why but just do it. That way you could not block what was happening. My am Ayla your are of the same derivative this had to be put in at some point so as again it could be joined at some point. I know it is hard but stay with it you will feel the release when it is said in black and white. You are the counterpart that we have been working on, to reveal all at once is to misunderstood, you see although now you resist it is less each time you go to write it the feeling intensifies, I will say this if I have to go on all night. You understand the gravity that is why Morgan interrupted before and told of the gravity. To do this thing which is yours you must have foreknowledge and a will to do it without your conscious acceptance it can not be as manifest, we all have to ask permission. You have done this in your dreams and hoped that it was true now you must say it as with the ceremony referring to 4/3/90. If you choose not to write it, it will come in other ways but this is one of your favourite mediums for talking to me it is a real act it is self-validating because you feel as well as write it is ours. Now take it slowly again I am Ayla try it again we can run through when you have accepted it by writing it down it must be done of your own free will or not at all but the die is cast. You are Aysla and yes we are Ayla together as one and separate on our own. Now that we have joined on all levels all can be revealed. I love you we are who you thought you were no fear please it is done now to make all levels to come together as one your ability to have your reality changed is our love. It is well. You cannot unlearn. This is only the acceptance of something you have been doing for the last 3 days so dont have to pretend that it is not happening because you think it is too high to be have happened. We are Aysla and Ayla Yes we are Yes we are Ayla and Aysla I am Ayla it is complete. You and I connect because it is balance without your own belief in your connection as being equal to mine than we could not have joined it is done.
Then Morgan wrote.
Yes You are well, this means that all is correct it will need ratifying but you have broken through a barrier we have been trying to do for some time all is well youve done it protect and survive allow it. It is. When you explained to the circle you were explaining to us so that you had others to verify at different points so that we understood that you understood and you could not stop talking. The coat is something you have been done alone and had to bring it out to show it had happened. It is a privilege to work with you Aysla we are one with Ayla and so you are one with us we will talk later to clarify and build you up. It has to said what we are showing you but will do it later so as not to undermine your recognition of the truth rest love. Morgan
Changing the names and messing about with realities gave me a headache. When they do this kind of thing I always feel like giving up and becoming deeply engrossed in another occupation like stamp collecting. Not being much of a collector this is not a possibility so I have to put up with it. The channel did clear a few matters up though. Whether or not Aysla and Ayla existed was not important, the possibility of changing my reality and the reality of a guide was. I have never wanted to know about the existence of Aysla so when the words were trying to be channelled I resisted. Each time I came to write them the feeling of a guides presence grew stronger, until I had to give in. The feeling was my verification that the words were right, I could taste it. And here I was playing with guides again, how strange life is.
Accepting all that had been written was difficult. I had got used to the idea that Aiddrienne was back and did not want to get my head around the bigger picture. Another thing that worried me was the fact that I had somehow merged with a guide on some level, how was I going to integrate that into my understanding of the system. They had always seemed apart from me, the distance meant that I could step back and make sense of it all. Well I thought I could but the last couple of months proved that I was in deeper than I thought. I knew that they were closer than I had ever felt them before, I could physically feel them. After Ayla or Aiddrienne or whatever her name was, had written, my existence on this planet was questionable for a couple of hours. Had I crossed over in some way to another dimension for a while? In case it had all been in my head I tested it. Remembering that she had said that my imagination got in the way I allowed her to come to me without prompting or playing mind games. Sure enough the energy flooded back without me having to help it along. No vision just pure unadulterated light accompanied by the strange feeling in my mouth and the droning frequency.
Had I experienced a brush with another dimension during my childhood? It would certainly explain my delirium at the time and provide a validation of the same thing happening now. The most striking thing being that I was not in control of the feeling, it was compelling. I hoped that I was experienced enough to know that it was not all just my mind playing tricks.
The next circle was just as strong with the same feelings coupled with the physical sensations. After I came out of trance Alan, who was sitting opposite to me said that during the channel my face and aura had changed dramatically, I took on the appearance of a golden hairdo woman. How was that possible? I knew the woman had to be Ayla, in the meditation she had sat into me when I was least expecting it. In the group we talked at length about the phenomena of transfiguration, where the person channelling takes on the appearance of the guide or spirit that is talking. Not only is it a fantastic idea but also incredible proof of their existence.
The details were hazy in my mind as it tried to get a grip on the forces acting on me. Recognition of my essence as this Aysla character allowed me to step back from myself to see the possibility. The fact that the names were so close led me to believe that it was a device to bring me closer to my guide in reality. Either way it had worked. If the feelings on my own had just been the fruits of an overactive imagination it proved what an incredible tool the mind is. The manifestation in front of others was quite another phenomena this was solid proof that other forces were at work. I had no explanation; I was not aware what had been going on. I had to question it all because it was such an incredible mind blowing event.
Needing a rest to cogitate on the possibility of guides manifesting themselves in our physical plane I missed the next meditation circle. My theory was that if it was in truth a reality then after some serious grounding, almost forgetting what was going, the feelings and guides would return at the given moment to validate the situation. Trying to make a break from them proved harder than I had thought. It seemed that now that my imagination had been safely put away to stop my ego interfering, they had direct access. Instead of me thinking that a guide was saying something and then translating it, they spoke directly to me. I would not feel their energy they would just speak when I least expected it. I was beginning to understand what was going on, my frequency was the same as the guide I was with therefore I felt no change in vibration when they came close. This would allow more energy to be put into the message rather than waist it punching through my ego.
A plateau had been reached, which in turn meant that I could move forward to the next one. I was convinced this was an opportunity to use a far higher vibration thus allowing the manifestations that Aiddrienne had hinted at many years previous. The changing realities that had always been spoken of I thought were changes in my perception of my life giving me a better understanding and a glimpse of a better world. She would stress time after time that I had to believe in a reality where she and I would meet, that I would see here as if she had popped round for a coffee. Now it was coming true. Whether my definition of her or me were correct did not matter they had showed me what was possible and that we are only limited by our self imposed barriers. We create our own realities that become a fact when others validate them by confirming that they have observed them. Exactly the same way that a child learns to test reality as it grows up, trusting in those around it to validate what is going on.
Ayla, rather than fading into the background while I had a rest, seemed to become more real and tangible. I had always had a picture of her in my mind from the neck down, but never her face. It seemed as though this was reserved for special events. If I tried to concentrate on her face the vision faded until I focussed on her body again. No longer was this a static body though it walked and moved and gestured. When I first became aware of guides the visions I had of them were like statues, my mind could not follow their movements but they would change in appearance slightly depending I supposed on my mood and what I needed to see. Ayla was a strong touchable presence that did not alter in appearance. Each time I tried to change it the same vision would come back re-enforcing my experience of her.
© Phil Ironside